Finding a bathing suit has been a challenge. I still want to look like a woman in her 20s, not 50s! I have found that a lot of bathing suits have padded pockets in them. I ordered two Lands End bathing suits and I am so NOT happy with these tops. My uniboob is very obvious. Today I found a plain black high neck bikini top on amazon. I hope it works.

I have been going spray tanning to make myself feel better! That surely helps!

History of my mastectomy at 27

I am 28 years old now. I was diagnosed with the BRCA 2 breast cancer gene at 27 years old. I have a 2 year old son. When I received my positive results my world crumbled around me. I tried to not let anyone know it. I would make jokes about getting a free boob job (although I was really dying inside).

I no longer could take the depression and anxiety and opted for a double mastectomy nipple sparing with expander at 27 years old. At the time my son was only 21 months old.

I was not prepared for the amount of pain I would be in or the time off I was going to need to recoup. Even though it was so painful it was worth every bit of pain.

Anyways, a week after leaving the hospital I got my drains out and my first fill. I received 3 fills before I became deathly ill. I remember the morning before I was hospitalized. I was icing my foobs blaming the pain on my fill. At 6 pm that evening, I contracted a fever of 102 and drove myself to the Emergency Department. Still in denial. As I was stilling in the ED, I became to get more sick. I was freezing cold and the  nurse realized something was seriously wrong. I was rushed back where I was told I had a serious staff infection. All I could think was not wanting another surgery. I was in tears.

I was hospitalized for 8 days and sent home on 3 different antibiotics for 30 days. I thought I was cleared up, but boy I was wrong.

I returned to work a week later and contracted a green hole on my left breast. I knew in my heart of hearts is was not good. My surgeon looked at it and told me to cover it and if it got worse to call him. The next day I was able to see my expander through my skin and emergency surgery was scheduled. To say I was devastated was an understatement.

When I got out of that surgery I had never felt better! I was eating gummy fish and sneaking candy. LOL!

Now I was faced with being a uniboob. For the next month I went around work and town with one breast. PEOPLE WERE SO RUDE!!! I got weird looks and rude statements. However, I was healthy. Who cares. Truthfully, I do.

Here I am 8 weeks out of my last surgery and postponing my reconstruction. I have a prosthesis ( will tell you more about it in my next blog post). Life as a 28 year old girl with one breast is tough. BUT I AM ALIVE AND HEALTHY@